start of a new day

I have decided to start a blog. I'm not sure what I will accomplish by doing this, but I do intend to record my thoughts through this process as I embark on a new journey. This journey is not only a physical one, as I will be traveling to Mexico, and hopefully to Buenos Aires but a journey of the mind. A transformation is needed in my life. I hope to grow into the man that I dream of being. Whether or not traveling out of the United States is imperative in this process I do not know, but it is a moot point. I need a drastic change, and I need to prove to myself that I can be alone. I hope to one day know that the panic that sets into my body can be controlled. I hope to re-condition my mind into one of pure confidence. I hope to fill the void that I have felt for almost 10 years and become fully and truly whole again. I will do this, and there is no question in my mind that I can feel this way. This is my last week in Santa Barbara, and I do not know when I will be back. I will never forget the day I moved in with Natalie, as an 19 yr old boy. From living by the Magnolia Center, to Haley Cottages, the 525, Burton Circle, and then 1134 Garden, I have learned and grown a ton. I have made many friends, and conquered the intricacies of the city, as well as lost friends for mistakes that I have made. All in all, my time here has not be in vain.