Not a moment goes by each day that I am not thinking about meliss. I miss her so much, and although I try my hardest to stay positive, it is so fucking hard. I just keep praying and praying that the doctors are able to get the right cocktail of meds to control the seizures that she continually has as they bring her off the sedatives. I am praying for her to be calm. I wonder how people can tell me to "take care of yourself," as they continue to live life as if the world is not darker and that much more drab because of this situation. To me, the world has not seen light in 12 days.