How can I just walk away and say goodbye? We have all been told that if you love somebody you have to set them free but I would rather be locked to her forever. She is not even alive, and I would rather be chained to her existence forever. People keep telling me that time is the only thing that can help me through this. How does time help me with these feelings? Time is making it worse, for it is time that keeps reminding me that she is still not here, and never will be. Time is the only thing that separates her from being alive and dead. Time is what is keeping her dead. I just need to be able to reverse it and go back a few months to help her. I should have been there. I should have done so much more. It drives me crazy to think about what I could have done differently that could have altered this outcome. Please tell me that this pain will subside and everything will be alright once again. Please tell me that I will once again have some semblance of normality. Even if the reality of it is not entirely normal, perhaps there will be a sliver of truth. I just know that my love is pure, and that inside my soul she is beautiful. Nothing else matters.