at JFK

Just sitting here waiting to board my plane to san Miguel. I don't know if I'm finally realizing and attempting to comprehend what happened or if I'm sad because I'm leaving NY but I'm an definitely super emotional right now. I hate seeing other people holding hands with someone else or sitting and laughing. Being in NY was great and it was so nice to have some time with my brother, something that we haven't had in quite a while. It was also difficult though, because Melissa and I had talked about me coming out here for her bday while she was gonna be here for a wedding. Just the thought that I could have been here 2 months ago with her leads my mind into a rapid progression of thoughts which ultimately makes me upset and crying. On a side note, my flight was just delayed an hour and I'm watching someone hit their 4 year old child and treat this adorable child like he were a dog.