the heaviest weight upon me

I feel so heavy with this pain. I carry it with me always, for I feel like it makes me closer to her. It sounds absurd, I know.

When I walk through the city, sometimes I wonder how people are able to have such nice smiles. Then I remember when I was happy, and realize that happiness is very easy to attain. However fleeting it may be, it is something that I long for.

Too drunk and still drinking, it's just the way I feel.

We said, always and forever...such a long, and lonely time.

One more drink and I'll move on.