just a few thoughts

The way she would imitate me when I danced, and stood.
Walking in the rain up to eat at the Italian place, and walking home together in the rain to west beach
The way she would talk with her hands
How her nostrils flared when she spoke
How she sung to songs in the car
Sharing the same sleeping bag
Going to class early at iv theatre just to see her
Running into her at the parking pay kiosk thing 2 days after we met
Going to the farmers market for avos, bell peppers, artichokes and asparagus.
The way she would eat the artichoke
Sleeping in the prius when we had no where to live.
Sleeping at the motel in carp, and the motel in sb for a few days
Sleeping on the floor in the living room at g phi
Commuting from SB to warner bros.
Hearing her knock on the door at my apt.
The way she would run down the hall so no one would see her.
Picking her up from work.
Her vaccuming her bed and cleaning like a maniac.
Watching curb and Seinfeld episodes before I had tv. At 1134
Watching her blow me a kiss and give me a peace sign when she would leave in the prius cab.
The way we would cuddle
Hearing her say “oh man…” or “oh, my god” when we would cuddle.
Hearing her say “oh man, that’s a good one” when I would shave.
Waiting for her at the transit center and seeing her on the bus looking for me.
Eating at los arroyos and reading the newspaper together.
Walking from the transit home holding hands.
Coming down the steps in paradise and seeing her sitting at the bar drinking a Shirley temple
Watching planet earth, and the lakers, and hearing her say the players names. “lamar!”
Hearing her say “this guy” and how we spoke exactly alike.
“oh my god!” increasing in pitch.
Her laugh
Hearing her call me honeypie, and it being weird when she would say ‘al’
Going out to dinner and analyzing everything.
Eating at the lower state Italian place and liking the salad.
Chicken fries.
Asparagus and prosciutto
Listening to the rain at 110 burton.
Laying in bed all day watching tv, mainly law and order.
Texting her in the bathroom at dise figuring out when she was coming in, etc.
Seeing the cab she was in drive to dise, and getting in to go to my place.
Hearing her say “red to garden”
Giving her daisies.
Knowing I could make her laugh at anytime. My dancing, or standing a certain way.
Dave at Hollywood bowl. Picnic from the farms before on the grass.
Her watering the grass and flowers on elise.
Walking to get food from lazy acres.
Her green dress and pink ugg combo.
Her juicy jeans.
The way she would say “oh my god, honeypie”
Driving up state and her saying that she was sad because she wouldn’t see it lit up again during Christmas time.
Waking up at 6:45 every morning for a quarter.
The way she would hand me her glasses at the same time she would say “goodnight I love you”
“no no no no no no no no” when one of us was tired
looking through the window at 1134 and having her come down and open the door for me.
Whistling at her to throw the key down after work. Seeing her peek out the window and toss the keys.
Telling her the Freddie Mitchell story at fatburger
Sitting at the brewhouse and eating an artichoke.
Food at cantwells, and then lunch by the pond.
Going to see jarhead with her and kaveh.
Sleeping in the car in san diego
The way she would reach for towels after she would wash her face.
Walking to class together at city college.
Sitting next to each other in speech class and talking on aim and going online
Her pink rain boots.
ALL of her jewelry. Rings and bracelets.
Her green shorts from v.secret
Her blue sweats with pink “pink” on the butt.
Seeing sarah barrielles at soho.
Watching her put on her makeup at 1134 sitting on the ground.
Her heart shaped jewelry holder.
Sitting watching I shouldn’t be alive at 110 the first time.
Coming from work and seeing her set up on my bed, watching tv and on her comp.
Sleeping on the couches in eagle rock
Sleeping up in her room, and waking up really early to go down to the couch
Laying up all night with her in “her brothers room” talking
Driving up to santa cruz with her to visit annie.
Pitching the tent in the front yard at 2309 to practice
Sitting together on the bus during the camping trip.
Sleeping in the same sleeping bag
Hearing her sing “how much is that doggy in the window” while walking back home
Driving up to sb to see her, when she was at java.
Watching the fireworks from Fordyce
Driving her home the night after she stayed with me at 525
Having brooke pick her up from iv so she could come over.
Listening to the go find that first night
Watching her try and crip walk the first night she was over
Eating at the brown pelican the day before her grad.
Going to petco with her with tea
Shopping on Melrose for her jeans, I bought her a bracelet, and then getting dinner and needed to get picked up by annie and mom.
Flat tire on the 101
Playing Frisbee in sb with her at “dead palm”
Going to the beach with her in IV
Chilling with her at mal and alex’s
Going to charlies old apt, where she lived next door to piper
Taking josh’s truck to get her mattress
Sitting in the room with her, and her being worried about the music, and her new roommates
Walking home from dt, and seeing that she was calling me, asking me to hang out….pretty sure I was walking on cota, back towards 525.
Going to dinner at giorgios.
Chin chin in brentwood
When we got into the fight driving home, and she got out and started walking to the PRISON!
the first time she had a seizure at 1134, when we were on our way to my haircut.
lighting our candles at night
when she said "ow ow ow ow ow ow" after the window closed and she couldnt lift it back up.
the way i would come back into the apt a few times before i could actually leave when i would have to go somewhere.
the way she would walk when she was cold, very briskly and with her shoulders hunched. the cutest thing ever.



i can't believe she is gone.